what have we become?

its funny how people change. how things change, how perspectives change, judgments change, etc. how you could hate someone so bad in one year and be best friend the next? this world, this life is so weird.

i used to tell you everything. we never were friends in the beginning of secondary school. eventually, we were inseparable whereby we waited for each other for each and every meal. its amazing how everything changed so quickly. we dont even talk now and the girl whom you used to be friends with, then enemies, is your best friend now. of course one should say "who cares? there are plenty of people out there. she's just one of the passing clouds." i dont think you are. you're someone whom i actually do cherish. we used to meet up for dinner, lunch, breakfast, any time of the day. when i was upset, i'd call you and when you had problems with your mum, you'd call me. we even worked in the same ice-cream shop together. i still laugh so bad whenever i think abt the time you dropped all of the coins behind the counter and had to pick everything up.

i miss you. i miss whatever we shared, whatever we had. i dont think by me texting you it'll help in any way. you'd probably just scoff and assume that i was being "fake" or whatever else you always judge me by. you called me fake, pretentious and so many hurtful words. you always doubt the purest of intentions that i possess. you nvr want me to judge you but you always judge me. every single thing i do or tell you, they're being judged. of course everyone judges, but your judgments and remarks, can totally tear one's heart apart. but whatever it is, i still treat you one of the best in my friends list. i guess one really shouldnt keep giving. it will eventually break you down.

i guess we're no longer friends anymore?